Life can be so demanding and hard sometimes but never ever give up!

After November I was going to concentrate on editing my first book to get it printed via createspace. But my grandmother, as of Sunday, has been in such severe pain from her foot where the veins are not delivering the right amount of blood, that the pain medication given to her has made her not herself. She hallucinates in every single way, or we find she’s walked to the front door or laundry room and things people are coming after her, or are here already to kill us all.  Monday morning right before I was going to leave to take my younger son to school I peaked in on her and found her bed empty which scared me to death. She cannot walk, Her wheelchair was there, but no grandma, Iooked in her bathroom and closet both were empty.  Then I saw that the small laundry room that holds one washer and one dryer and one cat litter box well the door was closed.  My older son had left for school on the bus and my mom who has MS, was in bed.  I went to the door and sure enough my grandmother was in there but she refused to come out.  I got my mom up and then took my son to school. I cried all the way there and all the way back.  All we do is help her in every single way but the medicine changes her mental state and emotionally it is draining because there are things she says to us that hurt badly. I swear we are doing the best we can but my mom’s multiple sclerosis is bad and though it has been only since Sunday that everything we know has been turned upside down, I feel drained. I yelled at God on Monday and prayed and prayed since then.  Grandma loves her horror movies but hasn’t watched tv since Saturday.  Early this morning there were ‘things’ in the walls and they were telling her not to tell us that they were after us. Take this moment and tweak it and you get another hour of oddness.  And then you get 24 hours of it, then 48, then 72 etc.  I am reading when I catch the time and will be positing reviews as soon as I can. And more free books from Amazon of course. But right now, I can barely function and I have a fifteen yr old son and a ten yr old one.  With four cats, it can get bonkers here but now, it’s just plain crappy.  But I won’t let my depression become stronger than me and defeat me. My grandmother has always been a super strong and stubborn woman. I’m stubborn too.  I push the depression back and look for little things like the wet grass after it rained or listening to music on the way home from dropping my son off at school to keep me going. Nothing is impossible. Believe it, live it.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Website Powered by

Up ↑


Books, words, gin and much more


The Erotic Art of Sensual Domination

A Ravens Ranting

About BDSM and life in general

margaret lynette sharp

Just another site


Writing, Publishing, and Marketing Ideas

Living Like Mabel

Just Living.......The Mabel and Calvin way

Adventures of an author's wife

Editor and publicist for my author wife Michelle McMurrie. Michelle is transgender and wrote her current books under her previous name of Michael Pugh.

ღ♪ Odăița Mea Virtuală ღ♪

Lipsa de comunicare este mai profundă și mai nocivă decât orice altă lipsă. Prețuiți ceea ce aveți deja! Pornesc într-o nouă zi din viață…fie ca aceasta (și toate celelalte)să fie o zi bună Pentru Tine LUME!

Aura E Martinez

Live to the Max™/Viva al máximo™

Purrfect Kitties

Roxy & Tigerlino's Silly Blog

GIFS Gratuits PJC

167.000 Gifs Animés Gratuits

Nicholas C. Rossis

dream-protecting author


Auf einmal ist alles relativ


Simple Living


Esther Chilton - Writer and Tutor

%d bloggers like this: