I don’t know about you, but my life unraveled right at Christmas in 2013 and hasn’t settled yet and here it is May 2014. I miss being on my computer, posting reviews on great books, posting free books and reading about what everyone else is up to. I haven’t touched my own draft of my first book. Nothing is the same nor will it ever be.
So let me give a bit of an update. I live with my mother who has multiple sclerosis, my grandmother, my two boys and our combined four cats. But something went very wrong with my mother and grandmother. My mother’s MS overtook her and she lost the ability to walk. After bizillions of dollars later in MRIs, we can see lesions on her brain and spine. MS damage cannot be reversed. My grandmother, after 2 angiograms later, lost her leg to an above knee amputation from PAD, puliminary aterial disease. She is currently awaiting the removal of her staples two weeks from now.
My 15 year old son turns 16 this month but he’s not your average boy who wants a phone or car. He is emotionally delayed. My 10 year old wants to graduate school right this moment, get a great job and drive a car.
My hands no longer work as much as they did and I have no control over my fingers. Typing is excruciatingly painful and slow since not all my fingers move. Carpal tunnel nerve damage. I’ve lost vision in my right eye and my eyes want to cross as well as my neck, when I turn to face a bit to my right, begins to shake hard all on its own.
My kids father has had to sell his house and is looking for work. Life is so very different.
I’ve pushed depression out of my mind because it’s not an option for me. I have too many responsibilities right now, people depending on me. No more gardening though. Leave the depression behind and embrace each day as if it is brand new with infinite possibilities. Take the time to look at the sky, smell those flowers even with allergies!