Myasthenia Gravis for pinterest

Forget the first chapter for my book! Scrap it. Going to start with chapter two as one, as I originally had it before someone changed it all LOL! Hey, he did some awesome edits.

Asgrove Academy will start with Lissa drowning in the magical realm while she has a few flashbacks to her ‘human’ life later. Welcome to magic, Lissa 🙂

Posting a picture I made for my Pinterest account of the same name, nightshaelane 🙂

Why only one side? Because the other doesn’t match!

only half mg

Life can be so demanding and hard sometimes but never ever give up!

After November I was going to concentrate on editing my first book to get it printed via createspace. But my grandmother, as of Sunday, has been in such severe pain from her foot where the veins are not delivering the right amount of blood, that the pain medication given to her has made her not herself. She hallucinates in every single way, or we find she’s walked to the front door or laundry room and things people are coming after her, or are here already to kill us all.  Monday morning right before I was going to leave to take my younger son to school I peaked in on her and found her bed empty which scared me to death. She cannot walk, Her wheelchair was there, but no grandma, Iooked in her bathroom and closet both were empty.  Then I saw that the small laundry room that holds one washer and one dryer and one cat litter box well the door was closed.  My older son had left for school on the bus and my mom who has MS, was in bed.  I went to the door and sure enough my grandmother was in there but she refused to come out.  I got my mom up and then took my son to school. I cried all the way there and all the way back.  All we do is help her in every single way but the medicine changes her mental state and emotionally it is draining because there are things she says to us that hurt badly. I swear we are doing the best we can but my mom’s multiple sclerosis is bad and though it has been only since Sunday that everything we know has been turned upside down, I feel drained. I yelled at God on Monday and prayed and prayed since then.  Grandma loves her horror movies but hasn’t watched tv since Saturday.  Early this morning there were ‘things’ in the walls and they were telling her not to tell us that they were after us. Take this moment and tweak it and you get another hour of oddness.  And then you get 24 hours of it, then 48, then 72 etc.  I am reading when I catch the time and will be positing reviews as soon as I can. And more free books from Amazon of course. But right now, I can barely function and I have a fifteen yr old son and a ten yr old one.  With four cats, it can get bonkers here but now, it’s just plain crappy.  But I won’t let my depression become stronger than me and defeat me. My grandmother has always been a super strong and stubborn woman. I’m stubborn too.  I push the depression back and look for little things like the wet grass after it rained or listening to music on the way home from dropping my son off at school to keep me going. Nothing is impossible. Believe it, live it.

Battling my depression today so here are a few links to some free books, get them while you can!

My older son was having trouble at his special school since last Thursday and each day the weight on my shoulders began to get heavier and heavier until today, when things peaked and I thought I could carry no more. I did not run to escape to the comfort of my bed and avoid reality. I did not need to take an anti anxiety medication nor did I use anything like alcohol but instead, I started reading and lost myself in a whole different world but I was very careful to tether myself to reality.

Inner Moonlight [Kindle Edition]

Carrigan Fox (Author)
5.0 out of 5 stars See all reviews (4 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $2.99 What’s this?
Print List Price: $8.99
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $8.99 (100%)
Length: 233 pages (Contains Real Page Numbers)
Book Description

Publication Date: April 27, 2013
If she can stop blaming herself for her husband’s death, she might just fall in love with the man she’s always wanted…

http://www.amazon.com/Enemy-Know-Suspense-Humor-ebook/dp/B004TMPMJE
The Enemy We Know (Suspense with a Dash of Humor) [Kindle Edition]

Donna White Glaser (Author)
4.3 out of 5 stars See all reviews (61 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $2.99 What’s this?
Print List Price: $14.95
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $14.95 (100%)
Length: 322 pages (Contains Real Page Numbers)
Book Description

Publication Date: March 23, 2011
Book One in the Letty Whittaker 12 Step Mystery series – a mix of suspense and humor with deadly consequences.

http://www.amazon.com/The-Superuser-Suspense-Thriller-ebook/dp/B005K7HKII
The Superuser: A Grisham Stark Murder Mystery Novel (Action Suspense Thriller) [Kindle Edition]

Collin Moshman (Author), Katie Dozier (Author)
4.6 out of 5 stars See all reviews (14 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $2.99 What’s this?
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $2.99 (100%)
Length: 347 pages (estimated)
http://www.amazon.com/Out-of-the-Dark-ebook/dp/B00CB8GY9K

Out of the Dark [Kindle Edition]

Geri Foster (Author)
4.8 out of 5 stars See all reviews (9 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $4.99 What’s this?
Print List Price: $8.99
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $8.99 (100%)
Length: 216 pages (Contains Real Page Numbers)
Book Description

Publication Date: April 10, 2013
After a Russian mission goes south, Falcon Securities agent John ‘Mac’ McKinsey is stranded with assassins on his trail. His boss arranges for him to hitch a ride with the corporate attorney Emily Richards, who is in Russia as a mediator.

http://www.amazon.com/The-Devil-Know-DeVere-ebook/dp/B00EXD7U4E
The Devil You Know (The Devil DeVere) [Kindle Edition]

Victoria Vane (Author), Tara Chevrestt (Editor)
4.7 out of 5 stars See all reviews (22 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $2.99 What’s this?
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $2.99 (100%)
Length: 145 pages (estimated)
Book Description

Publication Date: September 1, 2013
Library Journal
Best E-book Romance, The Romance Reviews Best Historical Romance
nominee, Love Romances Cafe Best Historical Romance Nominee, IND’Tale
magazine Best Historical Rone Nominee

**This story is Part I of Diana and DeVere’s story. It is third in the series but can be read first **

http://www.amazon.com/Mestaclocan-ebook/dp/B00EZFO1Y2
Mestaclocan [Kindle Edition]

R Lawson Gamble (Author)
5.0 out of 5 stars See all reviews (1 customer review)
Digital List Price: $2.99 What’s this?
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $2.99 (100%)
Length: 360 pages (estimated)
Book Description

Publication Date: September 2, 2013
Do other creatures exist on earth beyond the veil of human awareness? Do they even now walk among us? Do…some even prey upon us?

http://www.amazon.com/THE-ACCIDENTAL-EXORCIST-ebook/dp/B0047DW9OG
THE ACCIDENTAL EXORCIST [Kindle Edition]

Joshua Graham (Author)
3.8 out of 5 stars See all reviews (126 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $0.99 What’s this?
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $0.99 (100%)
Length: 69 pages (estimated)
Book Description

Publication Date: September 13, 2013
THE ACCIDENTAL EXORCIST
(A short novella)

When forensic psychiatrist Abigail Lee meets a baby-killing mother who has been declared criminally insane and acquitted, she discovers something lurking beneath the surface. Something far deeper and more insidious than mere psychopathy. But can she come to terms with her own struggle with science and faith in time to confront it?

http://www.amazon.com/Descendant-The-Protector-Series-ebook/dp/B003UNJZQO
Descendant: The Protector (The Descendant Series) [Kindle Edition]

Daniel W. Koch (Author)
3.9 out of 5 stars See all reviews (16 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $3.99 What’s this?
Print List Price: $9.99
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $9.99 (100%)
Length: 334 pages (Contains Real Page Numbers)
Book Description

Publication Date: June 29, 2010
Jason Hook has spent eighteen years of his life growing up in a world plagued by monsters. The extinction of the human race seems inevitable. When Jason and his family are forced to move from their home in California to a small town in New York, he finds that some of the creatures are actually trying to save his life. For reasons he is only just beginning to discover, there is something about him that the creatures find very interesting. Jason is at the apex of a world at war where he must choose between life, death, and the possibility of becoming one of the creatures he has sworn to hate. But in becoming a creature, Jason might just have a chance to save humanity.

HELP AN AUTHOR, GET A FREE BOOK AND WRITE A REVIEW!
http://www.amazon.com/The-dark-side-world-ebook/dp/B00DJY03E2
The dark side of the world [Kindle Edition]

Michael T Brooker (Author)
Be the first to review this item
Digital List Price: $0.99 What’s this?
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $0.99 (100%)
Length: 338 pages (estimated)
Book Description

Publication Date: June 21, 2013
When the car crash happened, Malone knew he was going to die, but living hadn’t been easy these last few years and he was tired of living. Since the death of his family he found it hard to look at himself in the mirror and was ready to let it all go, but life wasn’t finished with him yet, and nor was the stranger who saved him from the burning wreck of his vehicle and chose him as the man who would help to save the world from being plunged into a new age of darkness through the machinations of low men in high places.

http://www.amazon.com/Fosgates-Game-Supernatural-Novella-ebook/dp/B00C8PDRMI
Fosgate’s Game – A Supernatural Novella [Kindle Edition]

David C. Cassidy (Author, Illustrator)
4.4 out of 5 stars See all reviews (11 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $0.99 What’s this?
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $0.99 (100%)
Length: 66 pages (estimated)
Book Description

Publication Date: April 6, 2013
KINGS OF INDUSTRY. PAWNS OF FATE. LET THE GAME BEGIN.

http://www.amazon.com/Rest-For-The-Wicked-ebook/dp/B007UVBMFO
Rest For The Wicked – The Claire Wiche Chronicles Book 1 [Kindle Edition]

Cate Dean (Author)
4.2 out of 5 stars See all reviews (66 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $0.99 What’s this?
Print List Price: $9.99
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $9.99 (100%)
Length: 152 pages (Contains Real Page Numbers)
Book Description

Publication Date: April 16, 2012

Book 1 of an action packed new paranormal series.

She’s running from her past. And running out of time.

http://www.amazon.com/Birthright-Evolution-Chronicles-Book-ebook/dp/B0040GJGQO
Birthright (The Evolution Chronicles Book) [Kindle Edition]

RJ Palmer (Author)
2.9 out of 5 stars See all reviews (36 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $0.99 What’s this?
Print List Price: $19.50
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $19.50 (100%)
Length: 538 pages
Book Description

What if the next stage of evolution was caused by the oversight of man and what if that oversight was a simple medical mistake?

Raine Donnelly is born three months premature by emergency surgery after his critically injured mother is admitted to the hospital, having been the victim of a drunk driver though her early expectant state is not discovered until after a series of x-rays are performed to assess the nature and extent of her injuries.

http://www.amazon.com/Her-Longest-Night-Dawning-ebook/dp/B006QKX9P6
Her Longest Night (Her Dawning Night) [Kindle Edition]

Erik J. Avalon (Author)
1.5 out of 5 stars See all reviews (2 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $0.99 What’s this?
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save: $0.99 (100%)
Length: 286 pages (estimated)
Book Description

Publication Date: December 26, 2011
They live among us. They don’t know anything’s different about themselves. They don’t have a clue why they’re being killed.

Marsha Bradley is drawn into the hunt by a Handsome Stranger, guided along in the wake of stone cold killers by a tech-savvy friend, and will leave everything she has known behind to continue the pursuit.

Follow Marsha into HER LONGEST NIGHT…

http://www.amazon.com/Devils-Closet-Gallagher-Thriller-ebook/dp/B00B2F3RU2
The Devil’s Closet (A CeeCee Gallagher Thriller) [Kindle Edition]

Stacy Dittrich (Author)
4.2 out of 5 stars See all reviews (30 customer reviews)
Digital List Price: $0.99 What’s this?
Print List Price: $9.95
Kindle Price: $0.00
You Save:

Book Description

Publication Date: January 17, 2013
Detective CeeCee Gallagher is no stranger to high-pressure cases. But this one could easily cost her career…and her life. A macabre serial killer is on the loose, leaving the bodies of his young victims made up to resemble dolls. With only a Bible passage sent by the killer to guide her, CeeCee will have to sacrifice everything to find him and end his reign of terror before another child is murdered.

music more than just something, love more than just living

Just finished watching Les Miserables, 2012. It was beautiful on stage and emotionally moving on film.  It comes second to Phantom of the Opera, the film.  I enjoyed the many stage productions but Gerard Butler’s performance holds so much emotion, in his eyes, his stance, he is the perfect ‘Erik/Phantom’.  Especially since he does not wear that darn pinky ring I’ve seen others wear. Too pompous for me. Mr. Butler’s ‘Erik’ is haunting and this movie’s soundtrack especially ‘Point of No Return’, is my haven from the pain of this world. If the clouds cover the sky and hide the sun, I have this music to be lost in.  Should my life prove to be harder than I could believe it could be, I have this music.  In music you can close your eyes, and lose yourself in it.  It lifts my depression, strengthens my soul and brings a smile upon my lips. Listening to this particular song, as Mr. Butler sings at first, tender then at that one point the tenderness is gone and the need, want, obsession with ‘Christine’ is emotionally warped but in a good way.  I’m always humming parts of this soundtrack, and my younger son will say, “Phantom of the Opera again momma?” and my response, “Of course my love! His voice haunts me. It is beautiful.” and he replies to me, “You sing that a lot” and me “yes I do.”  We exchange smiles and life continues.

If my life is meant to be a mother, daughter and granddaughter, ex-wife and whatever other label anyone wants to put upon me, is there nothing else? I know love, have felt its strength, if I cannot have someone love me (family not included), be alone with my soul for the rest of my days, soon I will be turning 40, and with one son who is 15 and the other turning 10 soon, what will I do to fill those years when they no longer need me?  Online dating is not an option as everyone lies. People ask me now and then, am I dating. Are you kidding me? My first thoughts, ‘who would want me?’ and then blocking those thoughts out, ‘no time right now.’ I have fought to live, and this is the life I am living. the path I chose to follow. Death will come one day for me but not at my own hands and not over something as complicated as the love of a man. I don’t need another person in my life telling me what to do, how to do it and all that.  I know, not all marriages are like that, some are fabulous and wonderful but those are shapeless dreams floating away on errant clouds. Clearing my soul. There is no escape from life but to go on. And any thoughts otherwise is time best spent doing other things. key word there was DOING. Which means live. Don’t take the so called easy route out of life, don’t choose suicide. I’ve been on both sides of that coin and I am here today to keep you on the same side of the coin I chose. Life, for me, for you. ImageColleen

 

free books from amazon. free at time of this post.

http://www.amazon.com/Shadows-Fall-Others-Edenton-ebook/dp/B00EKW4E6U
Shadows Fall (Others of Edenton) [Kindle Edition]
Brandy L Rivers (Author)
4.7 out of 5 stars See all reviews (28 customer reviews) (44 PAGES)
18+ Novelette

http://www.amazon.com/Celestial-Beginnings-Nephilim-Series-ebook/dp/B00EKS4WWU
Celestial Beginnings (Nephilim Series) [Kindle Edition]
Rebekah Daniels (Author)
4.8 out of 5 stars See all reviews (18 customer reviews) (343 PAGES)

http://www.amazon.com/Just-Breathe-ebook/dp/B00AVLTKFE/
Just Breathe [Kindle Edition]
Heather Allen (Author)
3.8 out of 5 stars See all reviews (26 customer reviews) (293 PAGES)

http://www.amazon.com/Multicultural-Shifter-Romance-Caedmon-ebook/dp/B009LVWN40/
Wolf’s Haven (Multicultural Shifter Romance) (Caedmon Wolves) [Kindle Edition]
Ambrielle Kirk (Author)
3.8 out of 5 stars See all reviews (19 customer reviews) (118 PAGES)

http://www.amazon.com/Mate-Werewolf-Changeling-Encounters-ebook/dp/B00817F90U
Mate Of The Werewolf (Changeling Encounters) [Kindle Edition]
J.S. Scott (Author)
3.8 out of 5 stars See all reviews (60 customer reviews) (39 PAGES)

http://www.amazon.com/Ghost-Graveyard-Knight-Games-ebook/dp/B0097CO9ZY
The Ghost and The Graveyard (Knight Games) [Kindle Edition]
Genevieve Jack (Author)
4.3 out of 5 stars See all reviews (75 customer reviews) (294 PAGES)

http://www.amazon.com/Rising-Dawn-Jessica-Series-ebook/dp/B00CDGPD4W
Rising Dawn (The Jessica Dawn Series) [Kindle Edition]
E.I Jennings (Author)