Busy and somewhat creative and productive day and Depression NOTE

Well I got some editing done last night and a bit today but I got sidetracked with my other love, creating book covers. I love the creativity process!  But I am only on page 40ish and Chapter Six! LOL! But I go nuts looking for inspirational photos for that perfect cover. I have so many covers and ideas I don’t know what to use. I have to get back on Amazon and view todays top 100 free and paid books.  I’m sorry that J.K. Rowling was found out to be her alter ego, like Stephen King has Richard Bachman, she has Robert Galbraith for her detective novel “A Cuckoo’s Calling”. People expect her to stay within the confinements of her Harry Potter theme but sometimes an author wants to write a whole different genre then they usually do, we can’t help but write the stories that fill our minds and express their need for sharing. Wanting to not be filed under her Harry Potter success is understandable at least from my point of view. I have some stories running in my mind that are nothing like anything I have written before and would like to keep separate.  Now her new book has been the number 1 book for awhile now.  Sorry but it’s not something I want to read. My father committed suicide more than 15 years ago and I spent the next few years trying to battle my deepest darkest depression when death felt easier than living. I was wrong. Living is so much better! There is always at least one tiny fragment to live for. ALWAYS. We can’t get people back when they die, we don’t get any closure, the hole they leave inside us is never filled and remains empty for the rest of my life at least. I have healed but that spot is permanent. I have many joys that would not have happened if one of my attempts had been successful. Lives I’ve touched in tiny ways or lives that have touched mine. It doesn’t matter how big that touch is either way you look at it, what matters is that YOU are ALIVE. And NEEDED. Turn away from that seductive darkness that whispers to you or screams at you depending….and turn a light on. Live. I need you to. And more than just me, but the world.

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